Yeah, so, it was about a year ago that my hair started falling out.
I had completed my first round of chemo, and about two weeks later my hair started falling out. It sucked. While it didn’t physically hurt, it was emotionally draining. I was shedding all over the house for about a week or so before I shaved it off.
After that I wore a series of fabulous wigs, which were fun for a while.
My hair slowly started growing back in July when I started taxol, and I finally felt comfortable ditching the wigs by September. It was starting to get warm in San Francisco, and wigs are really hot. If you have never worn a wig, try one on and wear it when it’s 80 or 90 degrees. It kinda sucks.
I haven’t really had a hairstyle for a year. I’ve had wigs and then fuzzy hair. I felt like I still looked like someone who did chemo and was growing out their hair. This week I got my hair colored and cut, I feel like for the first time in a year like my hair has a style again. I don’t look like a former chemo patient. I look like someone who chose to have a pixie cut. I’m pretty happy about it.
I’ve been getting some compliments on my pixie cut – usually by ladies saying it’s cute and asking if I plan to keep it short. My answer has been “No, I plan to grow it back out to where it was pre-chemo.” But now I’m thinking about keeping it kinda short. Is that crazy? I’ve always felt like my face is too round (too fat) for a short haircut, but now I’m kinda like Janice in Accounting – I don’t give a fuck. Ginnifer Goodwin has been my hair goal. I think I’d be happy with it at that length. In fact, I really love her haircut.
Do you have any hair goals? I’d love to hear ’em in the comments!